I'm A Teenage Girl.

I have emotions.

I get angry, I get jealous, I get pissed. I'll want to lash out against those who hurt me. However, I'll hold it in, Ill keep my mouth shut.

Eventually I'll break down. I cry, I'm not a complete hardass. Maybe some people don't believe I feel. I'm the one with the smile on my face, even if inside im dying. I'm the one who will act like everything is okay, and release everything when I'm on my own. I let go of my problems in my own way, but then again they never really leave me. they are a part of who I am, your experiences are you.

Don't get me wrong, I'm a happy outgoing person looking to live life to the fullest. However, sometimes i care to much, I open my heart and it gets twisted bent and manuvered in so many directions that I lose control. Its a puzzle that I get entrapped in and I can't figure my way; a maze if you will.

I guess I'm looking for that one person to completely understand where I'm coming from, but I guess sometimes I don't even know where I'm coming from; why the feelings I feel are there even when I don't want them to be. When my heart goes into something, it is my whole heart and nothing less. That's where I get screwed.

But dammit, I can't let everything roll off my shoulders and shrug it off and carry on. I'll act like i am, smile, crack a joke, keep on living. Life goes on right? I guess that could be a solution to all problems, no matter what everything will carry on..

But once again I feel so deeply sometimes Its hard to contain it. My mind becomes this bipolar state and sometimes I think I'm so fucked up in the head that everyone else is in this box and I'm standing on the outside going 'wtf', for once a Norm for me would be good. I breath, I sleep, I eat, I bleed. I take my day as it comes and I put my pants on one leg at a time. I go through shit other people go through, just in other variations and them with their own variations. But Dammit....

I'm Human.