My own Rollercoaster.

So here I am sitting at my laptop, just freshly out of class, and I went back to my earliest blog entries since I first started this thing. I read the "I know that I don't know." There was one that said "I know that I don't know if I'll wake up a year from now and my life will be completely different."

Is my life completely different? Not really. I feel different, that is true; specially lately. Why lately? I went on my first rollercoaster ride. How does that make any sense? Let me explain...

I had spring break this past week; my roommate forced me to go on my first rollercoaster ride; let me tell you, that rollercoaster is a direct symbol of life. Or at least a certain section of events.

You started off on an escalading point; things start getting more intense, you are diving right in, head first, staring at what is to come, you arn't exactly sure how things are going to turn out, but you have a pretty good idea. Its the suspense that is building. You close your eyes, but you can't help but keep them open to see the events to come. Your heart beats; uncertainity arises. If things get scary; find a safe place. It's a whole new adventure.

8pint.

The huge drop comes. You are plunged into your new adventure. Your heat beats faster, it comes so quickly. its one of the highest points of the adventure; major shock factor. One of the climaxs of the adventure. It hits you quickly. almost like it was not even there; but you experienced it. It happened. You know it did. It was a thrill, it was an intense beginning, but there is so much more to come.

Kisseyface.

Then you hit the quick turns,sharp and intense, throwing you around slightly. You knew it was coming but you didn't exactly know how you would handle it. You are being pulled in so many directions you arn't sure exactly what is going on at some points, but all you know is you are enjoying it even if you heart continues to want to pound right out of your chest. Its only more of a thrill.

Shawty.

You see the end coming near; but not before one big adventure is left. Something you knew was coming, you were scared to hit. You are being thrown into a loop. upside down, blood rushing, your mind is slightly in a boggle, so much adrenaline and emotions running through your body. Possibly the best part of the whole thing, but before you know it, you are being thrown into another twist and turn.

Darlin'.

Then it starts to slow down, you see the end is very near. Your heart starts to regain itself. An epic adventure and a new experience just ran through you so fast. You know everything happened; you experienced; you tackled it and took it head on. But before you know it, it was over. Something that through you for a loop so quickly, came to its end just as fast as it began. But no matter how loops and turns you took; you end up right where you began. The same place you stepped foot onto this epic adventure, ends at the same place. Its just a memory now, but its still there. Perhaps it was your first time, perhaps you have become an expert at tackling these new crazy loops, but each time its different. each person has their own experience. Some love it and take in everything, some nerves are off the wall, others just can't handle it in general and let it get the best of them. Either way, throughout the entire thing your mind is in just a big of a twist and loop as the entire ride, and at the end of it you remember each detail. You remember the emotions and thoughts and actions shooting through your body in each moment.

Ghetto Booty.

At the end of the ride, you are still yourself. its just up to you to decide whether you want to take another crazy ride and go for another loop; perhaps letting that one change you or affect you more than the last. Perhaps you never want to set foot on another ride ever again, perhaps you just want to stay at where you started so you don't realize what you are missing out on; you are scared to lose that thrill so you just don't take it.

My advice?

Take that ride. Go for a loop. Take the twists and turns head on. Even if you end up where you started, it was an experience; perhaps one that will change you forever, perhaps only for the duration it lasted. Either way; tackle it, ride it, take control, feel it, breath it, bleed it. Run It.

Ride your own personal roller coaster each day.