Late Night Rant.

It's our own thoughts and ideas that can get us in trouble.
It's almost as if we hate hyprocrites but in the end, we ourselves end up being the hyprocrites.
It's our situations that seem different than what was previously stated, only by slight variations. We pick out simple details to show they are completely different, and that we do nothing wrong.

I don't know if sometimes we just lie to ourselves to get through the day.
Actually I do know, and we do. It's just to what degree and how many times we do it that causes the extremes.

Honestly, I don't know if this actually makes any sense to anyone besides myself.

It's the life that we live, the one we take upon and venture through, that defines who we are on a day to day basis. We can easily change that, but we choose not to. We choose procrastination, excuses, and demented ideas of truth over reality and responsibilty. Why? Because we are scared.

We are scared to lose, scared to live, scared to take that chance, regardless of the outcome. We are scared of judgement and opinoins. We are scared to do what we really want because we feel as if there is always something holding us back. "what ifs" and "how will this change things" and so many others. We restrain ourselves from exceling in stepping outside of the box.

In my view, wishing for anything, like on birthday candles or 11:11, is setting yourself up for disapointment, but that you should do it, just incase. It's taking a dream, trying to make it reality, but if its "Just incase" then you don't get your hopes up. Which too many times we hold back because we are afraid we are going to get crushed. That everything we put out on the line will get thrown right back at us, and sting twice as bad. but in reality, every time we get sad, depressed, angered, or something just hurts its another paper cut. It stings real bad at first, but after awhile u live with it, and eventually you forget it happened. You know it happened, but it becomes and less and less relevant, because it slowly healed. They may scar if deep enough, but scars leave memories, lessons, and just a tiny reminder..

'Hey I made it through that."